Hey peeps!
HAHA.
My blog is recently dead yah.
Here to liven it up again hehe (:

Wells, in past few days, my mind was too occupied that I hardly spared thoughts for myself and some certain people?...isn't it scary?
Yeah, its NO GOOD, you know? :(
I'm hurting many loved ones of mine, where I havent realized till now.
One of my besties or girlfriends was so unhappy with me that she scolded me to sound me out to my senses LOL.
Yeah, I am like that who always think of making others happy...

"Jiayi, Can you look at yourself in the mirror?"
"Huh? Why? For what?"
"Dont you realize it if you are really happy for yourself? While others walk away happily because of you...How about you?"

This question made me dumbfounded as I admitted that I am always willing to do anything for my closed ones or help them. To me, seeing others walk away happily does make me feel at ease and good as if I have done my mission.

"Dont be stupid. Some never appreciate you one and know how to hurt you in some ways."

"Its okay. Maybe they dun know that I am doing it for them behind their backs or know it one day themselves in time. In other words, give more than expected." (:

To be honest, it can be hurtful if they tend not to make use of this expected opportunity or event or whatever I create without their knowledge, well. Cos its as if my efforts go waste just like that lol. Anyway, I just hope that they appreciate everything around them... (:

However, I promised that person that I should not make this habit to super great extent for others' good as it could spoil them but dun worry, I still do it but can control arh haha. Cos of her, I learn to change my world to start afresh to be best Jiayi (: to make my time more worthy than before by keeping myself busy with my life *wink* and having fun haha.
To stop myself to go after whoever who dun need me yah.

"Know why? I dun want anyone make use of my angel Jiayi. Got it, bitch?"

HAHA. Isnt it cute? (:

"Ok lah!"

Alrights, hope you all know why I am like that nowadays haha.

However, I find something amiss somewhere nowadays...
I could see that some are scared to hurt me? =___=
OMG?
Like unsure to play pranks on me anot? =o=
Aiyah, why leh?
I am fine with everything lah. I dun take them seriously lol.
I guess its my "tired face" or "innocent face" to scare them off? hehe LOL.
Many said my face with smile soften their hearts? LOL. HAHA.
I dunno if its true.


I would like to say my piece:

I am sorry if I am not a good friend to you but I will try my best to be a good friend to you (:
I am sorry if I upset you as I know I can be naive to some extent.
I am sorry if I bore you out easily LOL but I will never stop irritating you (:
I am sorry if I scare you off? LOL =___=
I am sorry if I never spare thoughts for you...must tell me lah. How do I know right? Dun be paiseh hee.
( Dun be harsh lol. Cos got this girl angry with me that she did not want meet me anymore as I never do something I am supposed to do for her LOL. She made me think hard for reasons lah till I got it lol :x hehe Somehow, I have suceeded already :D )


Yeah! Last Friday was the day to make my plans for that someone go successful! :D
Cant tell you in details hehe.
Yah, I have been working on it for 3 months I think? woah zzz.
Kinda tough yeah.
But cos of her, I never give up as I love her as my girl LOL.
I dunno why I dun mind at all haha yeah.
Its cos I respect her alot as shes the one who teaches me to change my world.
I bet you all are puzzled by who is she right?


You will find out one day..Maybe I will announce here when its right time.
Surely some of you are amazed or shocked or like wtf LOL.
Anyway, I heck care about your thinking business when you hear it.
Its cos I have choosen her....


Oh yah...recently, I was upset LOL cos of my tests and huh-huh studies yah...
Maths quiz was fine..I think can get A for it haha.
But for FACOM quiz like today...it made me crazy :(
Somemore, MCQ qns only leh.
Cos I studied it like so last minutes....bad habit..
I know arh that it was lame excuse.
Yah, it sounded me out of my holiday mood (from my last semester holidays?)
I promised that it would be last one to make me disappointed...choy! LOL.
Frustrated lah :s
I listened to music the whole day to distract me from my crazy feelings =___=
I must WORK HARD to get my results I want.
I am doing it yah.

Work first, then play :p

Labels: Determined one more time

Labels: Bleeding heart

Labels: Follow the breeze

Hellooo everybody!

Well, i know it has been a long time since i updated this bloggg! I guess its just because there's no interesting story about anything , esp my life.. hehe.. gosh! my phone is cute and pinky!!

oh yeah! knoww what? today, my TP friend kept calling me via video call esp during my lesson!! She always trouble my life! T.T but shes cute! hehehe.. gosh! I need to studyy noww!! Tp life always make me go crazy!!

Tests are coming sooonnn.. and i gotta study !!


Goodnight people!

xoxo

Wells, first week of 2nd semester was over liao.
New subjects began to crack my brain lah =___=
Go home late everyday and reach school like on time or late everyday...ALAMAK.
Bless me arh hahaha.
Anyway, I have made many new discoveries. Interesting (:
Like lab thingys, CDS, friends and more haha.
Cool hors.
Oh yes,
I have gotten my new handphone YEAH! HEE! >:D
U100i!!!! <3
HEHE!
Its sooo HOT! You know? Oh my!
I cant stop looking at it haha.
Even Irah wanna steal mine liao LOL as she extremely love my phone's camera and uniqueness (((:
Isnt she cute?! ^^
It applies same to Wang Xuan, Tian Yu and Shi Tong :p
HAHA.
But arh, Daryl wanna destroy it =___=


LOL

I am not going to lose it!!!! WOOHOO~!

Got to sign off here! (:
Tmr got outdoor activity with my class!!! Yeah! *wink*

Labels: Play All You Want Lah hee

Labels: Forgiveness was highlighted

Time is passing. Everything is changing. Nothing is permanent. Life is a changing process. It is a constant flux of mental and physical energies. This changing process is called getting old. Therefore every single second that you live, you are getting old.

Every second that you spend reading the book, you are getting older. The one who started reading the book and the one who finished reading it are two different persons. The changes that take place in your mind and body occur all the time, from birth until death. Every single moment, you are changing; becoming someone else; you are in process of dying and becoming. Your bodily cells are always dying and being replaced by new ones. Thoughts arise in your mind and they too die. When one thought dies, it gives way to another thought arising in its place.

You are sitting on a beach and looking at the sea. Waves arise one after another, come to the shore and disappear. In the same manner, in your mind thoughts arise and disappear one after another. Watch the thoughts without clinging to them.

When you look at the sky, you see the clouds passing by. Don't cling to them, just watch them.

When you train yourself in this way of watching without clinging, your penetrative vision becomes sharp and you can see things in their real nature. You are not sleeping. You are awake. You vision is not obstructed with the dust of ignorance. Your have the light of wisdom. You know what is going on and happening within you and around you. You become someone who knows and sees the true nature.

So yah, got it?
In conclusion, please dun ever think of the past that makes you angry, crazy, mad and be filled with hatred or vengeance....because everyone , esp some whom you are unhappy with, will be changing with time in their thoughts, minds and wisdom.

STOP THINKING OF THE PAST (NEGATIVES)
WHY?
WHAT WOULD YOU DO WHEN YOU HAPPEN TO KNOW THAT THEY ,WHO MADE YOU UNHAPPY BEFORE, HAVE CHANGED?
HOW?
WANT AN APOLOGY FROM THEM?
THEY ALREADY DUN KNOW HOW TO UNDO THEIR MISTAKES AND ARE SPEECHLESS.
BE GLAD WITH THEIR CHANGES.
PLEASE THINK OF YOUR FUTURE
AND MOVE ON WITH A HAPPY AND NEW LIFE.
COS IF YOU KEEP THINKING OF THE BAD PAST, YOU WILL END UP
TALKING ABOUT THE PAST (NEGATIVES) THAT WILL PULL U DOWN
ESP BRINGING STRESS TO THOSE WHOM YOU SHARE WITH AS WELL AS MAKING THOSE ,WHO HAVE HURTED YOU BEFORE, MORE PEI SEH AND GUILTY.
FORGET AND FORGIVE LAH.
SO MOVE ON WITH NEW LIFE
DO THINK WITH NEW MIND.
REFRESH EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE *Click*

Labels: Change is made possible

Don't look back when you leave.
I can stand it in some way.
I can bear with it in some way.
I am hurting many who need me.

Labels: Burning in my mind